SEPARATION =(

I AFRAID I DUN HAV MUCH TIME ANYMORE , BCOS I CAN'T BEAR TO SEPARATE WITH ANYBODY AROUND ME . FIUH ~~

imagine that my graduation day is coming soon , feel happy & excited  to welcome my college life ~ feel like very near to enjoy my another new school life even i know my college life will begin on APRIL 2011 ( if i have been confirm that i have the qualitification to enter polytechic ) . Hihihihis ~

but meanwhile , i have to separate with anybody around me ( my funny CLASSMATES , my beloved ELLWYN , my family , my LQ , my anywhere FRIENDS ) . yes , indeed . we can have reunion but i think it's hard . by then we will busy of our another new life journey .

@ FUNNY XII AK CLASSMATES =) i really love YOU , ALL especially my HT . i love the day when we LAUGH , we GOSSIP , we BICKER , we PLAY UNO , we HIT EACH OTHER ( i think only harjono and me . hahahah ) . when i was down , you all can make me forget the pain for a while when we're happy-ing . i cant imagine if without you all , maybe i cant be so cheerful to face my DAYS ! also wanna thanks to those who have helped me alot in study or any else . SORRY  that sometimes i'm selfish or lazyy to helpp YOU >.< when we have separate , i dun know to who can cheer me up  anymore . hope that i can find new friends like you all !

@ my beloved ELLWYN =)) even now we have separate but sometimes we still can meet at school but by then we have graduated , i think it's hardly for us to meet anymore . DAMN ! but i know we will work hard to achieve our FUTURE . hope that GOD will always bless us ! mwahhh ~

@ my family =)) i still can always meet my mother because my mother will also go to spore with me but i'll hardly to meet my sista agaiin . i think i will damn miss her ! miss HER ANNOYING , miss her JOKES , miss her MISCHIEVE , miss her presence ! hope that you will oways be a good girl ! and my daddy , now is oredi hardly to meet him because he only comes back once 3 month . fiuhhh ~ but maybe whenever he comes back , my mother and i will come back too ^^

@ my LQ =) although we have drifted apart now , but i think i will miss you all when i'm not at here anymore . i will miss the moment when we are together , moment of trikora beach any many else ! but i afraid that when we have separated , it's likely we forget each other ! huh ~

thanks to my creative dd

i have oredi join to become blogger for some times but my blogspot still hasn't updated any background because i dun know how to do , where to get beautiful background , graphic ??

this afternoon , when i was online . i kept on compliment on lady nana's blogspot . her blogspot is so beautifull !!!!! i really envy . haisss . i do want such a blogspot . fiuh ~~~

my sista suggested me to try to grab the background from website of friendster's background's . so i browsed friendster and click the fs graphic and i found the website .

i tried the code to add to my blogspot , miraclely , my blogspot changed . wow . so happy ! although it isn't nice as lady nana's but i oredi satisfied because i have improved !!

REALLY A BIG THANKS TO MY SISTA . IF NOT HER , I STILL HEADACHE HOW TO DECORATE MY BLOGSPOT NHE ~~

just now , i went to lotus and saw some tips about the blogspot . i become happier , become very interest in blogspot . maybe tomorrow i will try to updated if i have time because i will be having exam the day after tomorrow so i have to study hard tomorrow night !

let's expexted how my blogspot will update ~

it's time to sleep .

good night eveybody !

thanks , GOD ~

so suiiiiii dayyyyy .

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .
today iss bad day .

this morning , like usual we would go to aula to pray but i was late and aula was so crowded so for who had lated had to take place in front of the stage . so i decided to not pray together with my friends . i went back to my classroom .

some minutes later , FARIDA who was beh siok seng was coming to my classroom and wrote our names who didn't pray at aula . she pulled a face ! huh ~

i got nothing to do so i decided to tease linda who was praying beside our classroom . i stood in front of that classroom and heard what BU TIROMA explained . it was quite interesting . meanwhile , farida was watching me from faraway .
she found me annoying stand at there and called me . huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
she scolded me very much and called me to throw the rubbish bin .
i exchange the empty rubbish bin with it so i didnt need to go upside's big rubbish bin .
while i was writing at the rubbish bin in front of my classroom , that disgusting jerk passed our classrooms . one of them who id cripple said something made me grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr . that CRIPPLE said that kick me till i can't pregnant . when i heard that , i scolded him cibai , beh siok seng . YOU , BITCH MOUTH ! what right you have hah a CRIPPLE ? let's wait next time . i will make you shame !!

what a bad day !!!!!!!

bored ^

today oredi go back to school , my STRESS life is coming again !
huh ~~
wondering what was happening thiss morning .
hihihis .
this morninqq , i learn how to play bang lak !
i just play for 2 thousand orediii for once. hwhahaha .
i had won 13 rb . hwhaa . not badd for beqinner ~
after going back from school , i was havinqq an accounting test . it's not really called a test , seems try oud lals . ckkckckk
at first , it seemed smoothly but at the end , OMG . i lost something to write , fiuhhh ~~~ so i had to erased many things and made me waste much time but fortunately i had done it at last !!

arrived at home , felt hungry so wanna grab a bite but i had to wait for dad's cookinqq so i went to online for a while ~~
i was wondering what i had to do because i had nothing to do eee . it seems odd bacause my everydays seem very busy but today i could get nothing to do ?
so i asked my friends whether they would be showhand or not .

havinqq bath and then went out to sjun's homs to SHOWHAND . hope that would be havinqq fun. hihih
i won 25 rb ^^
i got 5 fingers slap at my shoulder by pheiyyy . ouch , it;s hurt eeeeee .

we were playing a while and then went to eat .
i ate roti prata , hwhahaa .
what made me laugh was playing a trick with pheiyyy . i just remember , JANGAN BULLY SAYA . I shouted . hwhahahaa

NO COMMENT ~

I'M REALLY MISSING YOU ! DAMN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

chinese new year eve ~

yesterday , after going back to home i was busy to make my handmade nail art so i didn't write blog .i have long time no write my diary at my blogspott ~~

after success of making my handmade nail nart , OMG , my hands are so diffcult to type , to do anythings . huh! so uncomfortable aaa ~~~
oh no , this isnt important . hahahas

i'[m going to tell about what happened on new year eve ,, =pp

on this 2010 new year eve , i was oud with my HT bestie .
they are linda , licia , nelly . and also my sista and linda's sister ~
we went to watch the band . it's so crowded nhee .
it's quite lame to watch band . hwahwaa , but we wanted to see ayen's perfomance .
her perfomance is quite good !
after seeing ayen's perfomance , that boring speech from the government people was coming so we went to kfc to cool ourselves .
after that we went to band again , we went to fish the sea animals' toys . yay , maybe it's childish but i thought that was interesting . hihhiis
exactly , we were enjoying ourselves with that fishinq .
linda and i were playing while others became our assistant !
we were bullying each other . hihihis
what made me ngakkak was when i made linda's toys that she had catch from the water fall into the water again . hahahhahahaahhaa . really funny !
and also when i was bullying other stranger kids , absolutely funny .
i fighted for toys with them and made our fishing tool hang together again and again till the kids shouted aaaaaa each time when ours hang togetherr .
and what i was shocked , a kid who was fishing too scolded me . do you know what he said :
he said : you sinting and miring lals . hwahweeeee .
really shocked because no any child have ever said me like that . XD

REALLY ENJOY THAT TIME ~
I WANT TO FISH AGAIN

oh ya , yesterday he sms me . he greeted new year to me . althpugh it was simple sms but i'm really happy o ~ i'm still lovingg you but i will face all problem strongly cause i know you are always support me !

i'm still defeated by missing . fiuhhh ~~~`

i oways remain cheerful and strong to face the days no matter what happen .
but sometimes i can't admit that i'm defeated by missing that can't describe by any words !

LONELY , MISSING , HOPING R MY FEELING ~

See one by one of my buddies gets their happiness , i'm happy for them , envy them and feel sad of myself >.< because i oredi found my happiness but i can't be with him ! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa . WHY ? WHY ?
i'm really wanna stay by his side 4eva . i want HIM in my life !
suddenly , selfish thinking appeared on my mind .
i thought to ask him to study abroad together with me so we wouldn't apart , we could still having each other . at that time , i really wanna sms to tell him such words !

formerly , i keen to study abroad together but i neva told him because i dun wan to be burdern to him , i dun want him study abroad just for me . future is his ! only he can decide . i dun want him to make wrrrong choice .

but today , because offfff envyy my buddies , that selfish thinking appeared .
but i dun have that courage to tell him because i knew that was selfish !

MUMMY ~ HORE ! YOU'RE STILL THE BEST

i had been glumming because knew that mother would be back only on 1st day of chinese new year ! fiuhhh ~ so we can't have reunion dinner at new year eve . muchhh saddddddd ****** but what can we do anymore , whatever we have to accept .

yesterdayy , when i was facebook-iing .
suddenly , mommy was calling me in front of our home .
wahhhhhh , i was so happy to see mummy came back so we can have our reunion dinner liaw ! yesss ~~~~~

mum bought so many clothes such as jacket , jeans , red trousers and manyyy else .
from that moment , i could enjoy mum's cooking orediii . yessss ! so i can gain weight ~ xixixixi .

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .

owaiis like that !!
shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt .

i have told YOU many times to keep clean and tidy , places the thing to the place but you Always still like that !!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .
everyday After going back from school , see my house like that , dirty and messy ?
shitttt !!!!!!!!!!
IRRESPONSIBLE !!!!

YOU DON WANT LIKE TO HEAR SCOLD ? BUT HAVE YOU REALISED WHAT YOU HAVE DONE ?
I HAVE TOLD YOU TO NOT MAKE MESS BUT YOU STILL MAKE MESS , I TOLD YOU TO CLEAR UP AND YOU SAID LATER , LATER . BUT WHAT YOU HAVE DONE ? NOTHING AT ALL .
TOMORROW I ASKED YOU TO CLEAR UP AGAIN , YOU SHOUTED AT ME AND SAID I'M LOSO .
SWTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT .

simpe life is happiness ?

RECENTLY , I HEARD MANY GOODS NEWS .
THE FIRST 1 : ROKBIN KO IS GOING TO MARRIED ~
THE 2ND : MISS SUMARNI (SCIENCE TEACHER ) IS GOING TO BIRTH HIS BABY SOON . SEEMS THAT I HAVE JUST HEARD SHE IS PREGNANT BUT NOW SHE OREDI WANNA TO BIRTH HIS SON NEXT MONTH ^^
THE 3RD : MISS RIKA ( OUR EX ENGLISH TEACHER ) WHO HAS MARRIED ABOUT 3 MONTHS ALSO GONNA HAVE A BABY . I REMEMBERED LAST TIME SHE TAUGHT US ENGLISH , THAT WAS HER FIRST EXPERIENCE TEACHING ! SHE HAD JUST GRADUATED AT THAT TIME BUT NOW SHE OREDI GOT MARRIED AND GONNA BE MOMMY ^^
THE 4TH : ADIA C IS GOING TO MARRIED SOON TOO ON THIS 5TH OR 8TH MONTH OF CHINESE MONTH ^^ SHE IS GOING STEADY WITH HIS BOY2 . THEY ARE SO SWEET . ENVY ^^
THE 5TH : ROBBI KO IS GOING TO MARRIED TOO ^^

WOW . DID I SAY RIGHT ? I HEARD MANY HAPPINESS NEWS ^^

I REALLY FEEL HAPPY TOO WHEN I HEARD THOSE NEWS ALTHOUGH THEY' RE NOT HAPPENING ON MYSELF . SO ENVY THEM , MARRIED AND GONNA HAS A NEW FAMILY PART LIAW WHILE I'M STILL HAVE HEART WOUND ~~

I'M THINKING , THEY ARE LEADING SIMPLE LIFE YET HAPPINESS ~
DOES REALLY SIMPLE LIFE IS HAPPINESS ?
I HAVE FOUND MY HAPPINESS BUT I LET GO IT BECAUSE OF MY FUTURE ~
I'M A HIGH CONFIDENCE PERSON , I WANT TO ACHIEVE CAREER , BE AN INDEPENDENT WOMAN AND GONNA HAVE A LUXURIOUS LIFE ( MEANS I CAN BUY EVERTHING I WANT ). MAYBE CAN CONSIDER THAT WHAT I WANT IS NOT SIMPLE LIFE !
FOR ACHIEVE BRIGHT FUTURE , I HAVE LET GO MY HAPPINESS ! DOES IT REALLY WORTH ?
BEFORE THIS , I CAN ANSWER THAT MAYBE IT'S WORTH ! BECAUSE HAPPINESS WILL BE ARRANGED BY GOD WHEN IT'S MY TIME AND IF I LET GO MY FUTURE BECAUSE OF LOVE , THAT'S MEANS I'M STUPPID ~
BUT NOW , I'M THINKING . PEOPLE ARROUND ME , THEY GET THEIR HAPPINESS JUST BY LEADING A SIMPLE LIFE ( I DUN MEAN THEY'RE POOR OR WHAT , DUNNO HOW TO EXPLAIN ) BUT MYSELF ? LET GO MY HAPPINESS THAT CAUSE ME MISSING , MISSING , MISSING BECAUSE OF WANNA HAVE A LUXURIOUS LIFE ?
AT THIS MOMENT , I CAME REALISED THAT ACTUALLY SIMPLE LIFE IS NOT BAD ~
IF I LEAD SIMPLE LIFE , THAT'S MEAN I WON'T LET GO HIM . I'LL STAY WAITING HIM OR GO TOGETHER WITH HIM TO HIS COLLEGE'S CITY .
BUT THAT'S MEANS I DUN HAVE ANY ABILITY TO PROVE MYSELF THAT I'M AN INDEPENDENT WOMAN ? SO MEANS THAT I HAVE TO LAY ON HIM ? NO , NO , NO , THAT'S NOT MY LIFE @.@

FORTUNATELY I STILL HAVE THE INTEREST TO STUDY ABROAD ALTHOUGH I HAVE THOUGHT OF LEADING SIMPLE LIFE ~ I DUN WANT MAKE MY PARENTS DISSAPOINTED ! BECAUSE I KNOW THEY PUT HIGH EXPECTATIONS ON MYSELF !