happy schooling and ladies night !

i attended the class happily. do u know why ?

1. because i could talk with my classmate  and laugh. it doesnt mean that i dont talk with my classmate before , just not so connecting. the classmates i refer are LOUIS group. although they like to laugh me because of my voice , but actually i feel more comfortable with them.

2. edric who is my former group friend , also my classmate , asked me whether want to join to his group or not. because recently i switch to louis group which let edric and other shocked. they asked me the reason why i switched to louis group. i said nothing lals. i think i will confess to them some days later. i felt good bcos they still care about me ! i said to them that i was not good at talking but i'm willing to learn. they told me that it was not a problem , they will like me to do what i can. quite touching :)

3. went to club with eny , selly and vivi. it was quite fun. i love clubbing :)

i miss mom !

LATE UPDATED. IT SHOULD UPDATED 3 DAYS AGO :)

i called my mum because i realised that my mother had nt called me for several days.

i talked to her about my problems , actually that's a small matter.

i realized that i was so immature. bcause i have made my mum worried bout that.

i shouldnt bother to tell her while she faces other major problem. u know that , my family has encountered a quite major problem but i think it should be solve quickly. GOD BLESS US :)

i should try to adapt the situation.

when my mum was chatting with me , she said that she would told me after i came back to TPI , then i sensed that i havent gossiped with my mum since i come back to sg. usually , i get boring to gossip with my mum wheneverr i'm home. i began to miss her so much >.<

beach

aww, the beaches are so beautiful ~

i have not gone to beach for along time nhee . feel like to go to a beach and relax for a while . can sense the seawater , can see the beautiful view that let you feel comfortable with everything :)

the above pictures are BALI & HAWAI beaches .

the pictures really attract people to go to enjoy the nature .

i'll go there one day when i have enough money to pamper myself :)

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ji mo ji mo jiu hao ~ HEBE

fucking classmates ?

haiyoiii . just noe i have written about this blog but i didnt know what had happened that caused my laptop restart ! little pekcek.com :)

i love my life but i have been sighing recently :(

WHY ?

I think maybe of schooling . my studying may be stress but that's what i need to accept. because only challenge can bring you improve in your life . without CHALLENGE , u'll still be the same all the time.

the MAIN problem is with the schooling environment .

dont misunderstand that i have a bad university or whatever ,  i mean classmates .

classmates are really important for me . they are the one who can affect ur study.

i did find that my classmates were quite helpful but now , i begin to disagree with that now.

some classmates love to laugh at me because of my broken english. i shouldnt bother about that. sometimes , i just take that as jokes but it does affect my mood :( i would think rather than laughing me , wouldn't they guide me to the right english ? but these classmates are not really that bad lals except laughing me.

then , i dislike a classmate very muuchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh . that FUCKING BITCH ! she is too arrogant , you know . she think that she is very clever ? omg. please , see the mirror . that time , when my lecturer said that he was delighted to teach us because we could understand what was he trying to speak ,  she replied that most of the class members are singaporean so that dun worry , we understand that. FUCK ! DID SHE USE HER BRAIN ? FUCKING BITCH aa ! her meaning was the foreign students couldnt understand lols what the lecturer said. did she need to be so look down on us ? somehow , she isnt singaporean lels . she is just a person who start lives in singapore since she was young. then , she is a kind of person who will choose friends based on beautiful , attractive or whatever. i dun know how to explain .

she also seems doesnt like me . that time i badmouthed her to other class members at toilet , maybe she overheard that , that's why she doesnt like me too . hahaha ~ really obvious lols , she loves to take pictures within school time but she seldom asked me to join lols. u can hardly see my face at her albums. i remembered that time , i asked her to take photo of rayner , huixian and me. she was so insincere to do it. i seldom talk to her. i remembered again , that time i saw her at the bus stop from further. she did see me but she didnt greet me even turn to other side to pretend she didnt see me . swt ! whenever she saw other people , she will smile or say hello , but to me , she wouldnt ! i think she badmouthed me to other people too. that time , we were in the same project group , i asked group leader that whether i need to summarise the article or not , she replied me that depend on me. that's mean that if i want to summarise den go ahead . if i dun want , never mind. so i didnt summarise because i know that my vocabulary is not good then i send the article to them only to let them summarise themselves. but the leadersaid to bitch that what the fuck when she received the email. the bitch even like scolded me in front of many classmates when we were in smoking session. i didnt smoke but i just be there. just now , a male classmate told me that this time , you really need to contribute the project , dun be like last time , only send article. wow , MLUD BEBEK ! i think bitch old to him because they got closer now. didnt they realise that i just did based on the previous talking to leader ?

then i have a classmate who sitting surround me. he bought breakfast for a classmate . we are in group , he didnt buy for me lols. then i asked for kidding only. why didnt u buy for me. he replied : wo gen ni hen sou a with smiling. i knew he was just kidding . but i realised that he bought for 2 breakfast for 2 classmates. so i know that he treats me differently. maybe because i'm foreign or maybe i dont communicate much with him. I DIDNT CARE FOR THE BREAKFAST , I JUST SAD BECAUSE HE TREATS ME DIFFERENTLY BECAUSE OF NATIONALITY. of course , that is only my thinking. but it gives me an impression like singaporean will never treat u well because of different nationality. it applies to my another classmate who is sitting near me.

rachel , she is quite kind to me :) i will repay kindness to those who are kind to me .

so you will also find that my classmates are irritated . i need to endure 8 months more.

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bored :(

i have been not updated my blog for several months !
hahaha .

today have nothing to do nhe .
just now finished an exam . that is the first diploma EXAM .
i had revised intelligently so i think i won't fail .
hope so :)
i think it was not really difficult as i imagined before .

after coming back from school , till now i have been only online lols .
hufhhh . so SIEN nheee ~~~

i have a big problem that have been annoying me :(
i cannot speakkk proper ENGLISH !
my friends seldom can understand what i am trying to say den sometimes i always like to speak wrong grammars. hufhhhhh . how to improve my englishhh ?

down :(

i 'm feeling down right now :(

i love to pretend to be a strong girl but actually i do want to cry as loud as i can :((

just now saw my baby's fb status , I FEEL STRESS .

i was curious because i has not noticed that my baby has any burdens that make him stress .

i asked him ,

he replied that job , family and me .

and i asked again , me ?

he said that current he has a job and he may be neglect me by not sms regularly .

i smiled and answered : that's not a big deal , i understandd . i wont get angry because i know that can't always sms if hold any jobs .

and i asked again , how bout family ?

how come you dont share to me ?

if you dont post at the fb's status ,

i might not know anything .

he replied that he didnt want to share , let it be hiss little secret . at that time , i was terribly dissapointed :(

why i cant be his first one to share about his everything ( sadness or happiness ) ?

i tried to be calmly and said : it's ok , babyy . i understandd . feel free to share when you want to share, maybe i still can't be the one who you can share everything :(

he replied : not like that , just dont want to share with anybody

but i knew i still cant be the one :(((

i knew he tried to persuade me but i was feeling worst ,
feeling disappointed on myself why i cant let him to feel free to share ?

my tears was going to droppp , damn sad :(

 but i tried to not let my tears dropped but the more i persisted the more i wanted to cry :(

long long ago , i did have some big problems that caused me stressed . he persuaded me to tell him but i dun want , because at that time he hadnt become the one who i can share my sadness especially about my family .

and now i realised how he felt at that time :((

i can't hide my tears

i cried last night . fiuh ~~


i thought about our seperation .
since we have been together again , i never thought this problem 
because i hide my tears , i persuaded myself that that is not a big deal , 
GOD will arranged the best for us :)
i believe that time will prove everything :)

but i can't hide my tears anymore :(
i thought that whenever my baby has gone to jakarta and left me at here ,
i will damn miss him ! miss his everything !
miss the time that spending with him .
miss the place we had gone !
miss how he persuaded me to drink the LIANGTEH ,
miss how he pinched me !
miss how he treated me !
miss how he let me SPEECHLESS .


fiuh ~~

kamii L.U.L.U.S

we changed our clothes at the toilet and then i asked them to go the other places of rimba but i had been ignored by them . because we were Busy of SEMPROT ~ so we have our happy time at RIMBA TOILET . LOL

YES , MY DREAM !

forget to share a good news :)


i have been successfully passed my FUTURE COLLEGE'S test .
my future college is TMIS ( TOURISM MANAGEMENT INSTITUE OF SINGAPORE )
so delighted to hear that news !
my dream seems so near to me :pp

i'm going to take tourism and hospitality as my subject .
dont have any reason to choose that subject ,
that is not my hobby too .
but i find that will be a challenge subject .
wondering it's same as my thinking or not .
hwhahaa

thanks to GOD :)

THANKS to GOD

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HE has sent me a SUPER meaningful person to me :)

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a PERSON brings SMILE to my days 

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a PERSON makes my COLOURFUL LIFE become more COLOURFUL 

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a PERSON  who i can share my EVERYTHING 

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a PERSON who can accept my SELFISH ,  STUBBORN & SPOILNESS
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a PERSON who can let me wanna spend my every SECOND with HIM 

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a PERSON who i can let others ENVY of me 

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a PERSON whose little actions make me SPEECHLESS

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a PERSON who is the 1st makes me feel hurt whenever he is SAD

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a PERSON who can let me learn how to be STRONG  

:))

love is always there when there is hope ( late updated )

Feel heartbroken . ?
One side love . ?
Feel so depressed . ?
Hate love . ?
Nva believe in love anymΘre . ?

I'm n0t g0ing to solve ur pr0blem but i want all of you to be STR0NG :)

I did met those above incidents bef0re i'm haviing my CURRENT BOYB0Y'S LOVE .

Beiing loved or 0ne side love . ?

Many people says that being loved is m0re blessing rather than love s0me0ne .
Do all of you agree . ?
In my opini0n , i DISAGREE .

Some people choose to neva give up to get the love b'cos they believe that the one they love will realise one day .
while s0me people choose to give up rather than face the pains .
They're tired to face each HEARTACHE so maybe s0me of them choose a perx0n Who SUPPORT at their behinds to FEEL WHat we called being loved is blessing rather than love x0me0ne .

You may be touched by them , happy b.cos of them , given courage by them . BUT IS THAT REALLY WHAT WE CALLED FALL IN LOVE . ?
Do you love them sincerely or love Them just to repay their kindness . ?

I had had this kind of love , my result is that isnt LOVE . That is just a kind of repay their kindness .
Definitely , you will leave them one day .

So , nverr accept s0meb0dy just wanna to feel how is being loved .

Because That will also caused hurt to them .

For the one feel heartbroken , maybe break up with their beloved or etc . Dun because of once failed relati0nship and began to hate love , neva believe in love .
Because new love will c0me to the one who is stil beLieve or hope to the LOVE .

You must face the world smilely and tell urxelf that god will arrange a pers0n better than bef0re who worth my waiting of every corner of world .

I'had depressed , did stupid things , neva believe in man . But i've c0me round . And let natures take it courses and at last i found him ! A pers0n who makes me BELIEVE that THERE IS ALSO MUTUAL LOVE IN THIS WORLD .

I give myself as an example 4 courage you all .

BIG GIRLS DON CRY :)

GOD BLESS YOU ALL '

sorry to my blogspot . huh

WOW . almost 1 month no updated blog eeee .

REALLY SORRY TO MY BLOG ><

actually , within an month ago i wanted to update my blog , i got a lot of things to say and express de .

but many things blocked the activity eeeee such as went out with LQ , body-ache , laptop broken and blablablaaa .

last time , BADMINTON-ING with LQ really made my body ached 2 days aaa .

almost every part of my body got pain ( my hands , my shoulder , my buttock , my leg )

i almost laid down at my bed those 2 days ><

but IT"S FUN ! it had been a long time that i had been not badminton-ing .

my laptop was broken ? omg .

my life is so meaningless without laptop and online .

i admit that i cant live without that .

that has been become my part of life !

but i think i will be not update the blog in the few week later dus to some busyness .

SO I WILL LEAVE AND TAKE CARE YAY MY BLOG , I WILL DAMN MISS YOU !

SINGFU DAYS =)

on 20th march 2010 ,

MR ELLWYN AND MISS FENNIE decided to treasure AND CHERISH their relationship & time . eventhough we left a month ? a week ? an hour ? a minute or even a second ?

i'll still feel blissful to spend my time with him .

because I'M TRULY LOVE HIM =D

our 2 months separation really made me feeling like thousand years , i can say that i have been strong but I WANT HIM , I NEED HIM AND I MISS HIM !

the days with his accompany really makes my life become more colourful =p

can havv breakfast , dinner with him , can sms with him , can chat with him , can meet him , can be spoiled by him , can be naughty with him . HIM ~ HIM ~ HIM .

hihihis .

my SINGFU DAYS are coming again to search me =p

L.O.V.E iit !!

mwahh ~

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