down :(

i 'm feeling down right now :(

i love to pretend to be a strong girl but actually i do want to cry as loud as i can :((

just now saw my baby's fb status , I FEEL STRESS .

i was curious because i has not noticed that my baby has any burdens that make him stress .

i asked him ,

he replied that job , family and me .

and i asked again , me ?

he said that current he has a job and he may be neglect me by not sms regularly .

i smiled and answered : that's not a big deal , i understandd . i wont get angry because i know that can't always sms if hold any jobs .

and i asked again , how bout family ?

how come you dont share to me ?

if you dont post at the fb's status ,

i might not know anything .

he replied that he didnt want to share , let it be hiss little secret . at that time , i was terribly dissapointed :(

why i cant be his first one to share about his everything ( sadness or happiness ) ?

i tried to be calmly and said : it's ok , babyy . i understandd . feel free to share when you want to share, maybe i still can't be the one who you can share everything :(

he replied : not like that , just dont want to share with anybody

but i knew i still cant be the one :(((

i knew he tried to persuade me but i was feeling worst ,
feeling disappointed on myself why i cant let him to feel free to share ?

my tears was going to droppp , damn sad :(

 but i tried to not let my tears dropped but the more i persisted the more i wanted to cry :(

long long ago , i did have some big problems that caused me stressed . he persuaded me to tell him but i dun want , because at that time he hadnt become the one who i can share my sadness especially about my family .

and now i realised how he felt at that time :((

i can't hide my tears

i cried last night . fiuh ~~


i thought about our seperation .
since we have been together again , i never thought this problem 
because i hide my tears , i persuaded myself that that is not a big deal , 
GOD will arranged the best for us :)
i believe that time will prove everything :)

but i can't hide my tears anymore :(
i thought that whenever my baby has gone to jakarta and left me at here ,
i will damn miss him ! miss his everything !
miss the time that spending with him .
miss the place we had gone !
miss how he persuaded me to drink the LIANGTEH ,
miss how he pinched me !
miss how he treated me !
miss how he let me SPEECHLESS .


fiuh ~~

kamii L.U.L.U.S

we changed our clothes at the toilet and then i asked them to go the other places of rimba but i had been ignored by them . because we were Busy of SEMPROT ~ so we have our happy time at RIMBA TOILET . LOL

YES , MY DREAM !

forget to share a good news :)


i have been successfully passed my FUTURE COLLEGE'S test .
my future college is TMIS ( TOURISM MANAGEMENT INSTITUE OF SINGAPORE )
so delighted to hear that news !
my dream seems so near to me :pp

i'm going to take tourism and hospitality as my subject .
dont have any reason to choose that subject ,
that is not my hobby too .
but i find that will be a challenge subject .
wondering it's same as my thinking or not .
hwhahaa

thanks to GOD :)

THANKS to GOD

♥

HE has sent me a SUPER meaningful person to me :)

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a PERSON brings SMILE to my days 

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a PERSON makes my COLOURFUL LIFE become more COLOURFUL 

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a PERSON  who i can share my EVERYTHING 

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a PERSON who can accept my SELFISH ,  STUBBORN & SPOILNESS
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a PERSON who can let me wanna spend my every SECOND with HIM 

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a PERSON who i can let others ENVY of me 

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a PERSON whose little actions make me SPEECHLESS

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a PERSON who is the 1st makes me feel hurt whenever he is SAD

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a PERSON who can let me learn how to be STRONG  

:))

love is always there when there is hope ( late updated )

Feel heartbroken . ?
One side love . ?
Feel so depressed . ?
Hate love . ?
Nva believe in love anymΘre . ?

I'm n0t g0ing to solve ur pr0blem but i want all of you to be STR0NG :)

I did met those above incidents bef0re i'm haviing my CURRENT BOYB0Y'S LOVE .

Beiing loved or 0ne side love . ?

Many people says that being loved is m0re blessing rather than love s0me0ne .
Do all of you agree . ?
In my opini0n , i DISAGREE .

Some people choose to neva give up to get the love b'cos they believe that the one they love will realise one day .
while s0me people choose to give up rather than face the pains .
They're tired to face each HEARTACHE so maybe s0me of them choose a perx0n Who SUPPORT at their behinds to FEEL WHat we called being loved is blessing rather than love x0me0ne .

You may be touched by them , happy b.cos of them , given courage by them . BUT IS THAT REALLY WHAT WE CALLED FALL IN LOVE . ?
Do you love them sincerely or love Them just to repay their kindness . ?

I had had this kind of love , my result is that isnt LOVE . That is just a kind of repay their kindness .
Definitely , you will leave them one day .

So , nverr accept s0meb0dy just wanna to feel how is being loved .

Because That will also caused hurt to them .

For the one feel heartbroken , maybe break up with their beloved or etc . Dun because of once failed relati0nship and began to hate love , neva believe in love .
Because new love will c0me to the one who is stil beLieve or hope to the LOVE .

You must face the world smilely and tell urxelf that god will arrange a pers0n better than bef0re who worth my waiting of every corner of world .

I'had depressed , did stupid things , neva believe in man . But i've c0me round . And let natures take it courses and at last i found him ! A pers0n who makes me BELIEVE that THERE IS ALSO MUTUAL LOVE IN THIS WORLD .

I give myself as an example 4 courage you all .

BIG GIRLS DON CRY :)

GOD BLESS YOU ALL '

sorry to my blogspot . huh

WOW . almost 1 month no updated blog eeee .

REALLY SORRY TO MY BLOG ><

actually , within an month ago i wanted to update my blog , i got a lot of things to say and express de .

but many things blocked the activity eeeee such as went out with LQ , body-ache , laptop broken and blablablaaa .

last time , BADMINTON-ING with LQ really made my body ached 2 days aaa .

almost every part of my body got pain ( my hands , my shoulder , my buttock , my leg )

i almost laid down at my bed those 2 days ><

but IT"S FUN ! it had been a long time that i had been not badminton-ing .

my laptop was broken ? omg .

my life is so meaningless without laptop and online .

i admit that i cant live without that .

that has been become my part of life !

but i think i will be not update the blog in the few week later dus to some busyness .

SO I WILL LEAVE AND TAKE CARE YAY MY BLOG , I WILL DAMN MISS YOU !